I always roll my eyes
Laugh it off, pretend I'm fine
Keep it cold, keep it rough
Never needed anyone that much
But there you were, chains around your wrists
And something in me broke I didn't know could exist

I thought I'd be the first to walk away
Never thought I'd beg for you to stay

Didn't know it hurt this much
To almost lose the only one
Who ever stayed, who ever fought
For someone broken as I was
I bite my tongue, I hide the tears
Pretend I don't care, pretend I don't fear
But damn, I didn't know it hurt this much

You always drove me insane
Loud, chaotic, never changed
Took me in, gave me a name
Even when I pushed you away
Now I'm standing here, fists clenched so tight
Praying somehow you'll be alright

I thought I'd be the first to turn and run
Never thought I'd break to lose someone

Didn't know it hurt this much
To almost lose the only one
Who ever stayed, who ever fought
For someone broken as I was
I bite my tongue, I hide the tears
Pretend I don't care, pretend I don't fear
But damn, I didn't know it hurt this much

Maybe I'm colder than I mean to be
Maybe I just never believed in family
But you—you made me believe
You made me believe

Didn't know it hurt this much
To almost lose the only one
Who ever stayed, who ever fought
For someone broken as I was
I bite my tongue, I hide the tears
Pretend I don't care, pretend I don't fear
But damn, I didn't know it hurt this much
No, I didn't know it hurt this much