I always roll my eyes Laugh it off, pretend I'm fine Keep it cold, keep it rough Never needed anyone that much But there you were, chains around your wrists And something in me broke I didn't know could exist I thought I'd be the first to walk away Never thought I'd beg for you to stay Didn't know it hurt this much To almost lose the only one Who ever stayed, who ever fought For someone broken as I was I bite my tongue, I hide the tears Pretend I don't care, pretend I don't fear But damn, I didn't know it hurt this much You always drove me insane Loud, chaotic, never changed Took me in, gave me a name Even when I pushed you away Now I'm standing here, fists clenched so tight Praying somehow you'll be alright I thought I'd be the first to turn and run Never thought I'd break to lose someone Didn't know it hurt this much To almost lose the only one Who ever stayed, who ever fought For someone broken as I was I bite my tongue, I hide the tears Pretend I don't care, pretend I don't fear But damn, I didn't know it hurt this much Maybe I'm colder than I mean to be Maybe I just never believed in family But you—you made me believe You made me believe Didn't know it hurt this much To almost lose the only one Who ever stayed, who ever fought For someone broken as I was I bite my tongue, I hide the tears Pretend I don't care, pretend I don't fear But damn, I didn't know it hurt this much No, I didn't know it hurt this much