Battling myself inside my head
Though part of me knows better
The other part can't say no
Sedimenting patterns, can't progress
A post-traumatic trigger
Takes me down the same winding road

Feeding a fiction instead
Of breaking past behavior
Reinforce what I condone
Negative emotions that oppress
Gaslight what I remember
Hand that forces my own

The hold that grips my mind
Rests self fulfilled
Unless I take control

Strings of steel
In a Gordian mental trap self-imposed

I fight for freedom yes

All too real
From this narrative there is one last hope
Slash the knot I can't untie