I've been writing a lot of songs lately But you will never listen to them Because the things I would have to say Made me drown in my own silence This is not a choice, darling This is not a choice My heart only falls asleep in the morning And I've already lost the battle I've been seeing a lot of things lately You don't know how it aches And I can never show you But we can still be friends someday Because this is not a choice, darling This is not a choice My heart only falls asleep in the morning And I've already lost the battle I know you're upset with me I'm so sorry for a lot of things But even tho I love you so I can't be the friend you need Maybe I just needed some help And this is the worst part Because I ran away, and well This is where the devil starts But this is not a choice, darling This is not a choice My heart only falls asleep in the morning And I've already lost this battle