I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts I’m counting down every minute time is moving so slow Everything’s in slow-mo, every night feels so long Where is Dora when I’m lost and I don’t know where to go Nobody knows me but they telling me to stay strong I can’t swim but I’m going for the deep end I can’t win I’ll be dead by the weekend I got no flowies on my arms and I’m ‘bout to drown Tryna hold on but I’m going down guess I’m a dead man Staring at the ceiling of the ocean Oh shit, feeling sick too much motion I don’t sleep but I’m dreaming of emotions I don’t have, I’m broken - the truth’s been spoken I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine I ain't never been happy try to pretend OD and get high on the weekend So low I don't even got no friends Can't swim but I'm headed for the deep end Got a feeling I won't make it till next year So you can put a knife through my chest here I'm a human so it’s natural to shed tears Living life alone that's my worst fear And I'll be loving life next day I wanna die Just to numb the pain I'll get so fucking high Laying on the couch I can't open up my eyes First I wanna die but now I love life And I just want someone to understand me And yeah I got problems that they can't see So you can put a knife through my chest now And Imma lay down to rest now I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine