I walked in circles Trying to fit in with society I was too naive to think the world was colorful But when you grow up You fall face first into reality It's so cruel but you need to realize I explained to my younger brother the shit I've been through I wanted to spare him from thinking he'll always be happy Maybe I failed at this shit More than once Maybe I failed at this shit More than once Today I have insecurities and suffer from recurring anxiety Today I have insecurities and suffer from recurring anxiety I wish I knew in the past What I knew in the future I know my parents weren't eternal But now I feel lost (yeah) I wish I knew in the past What I knew in the future I know my parents weren't eternal But now I feel lost (yeah) So much suffering my young man You don't even know what you're really going to suffer in the future Enjoy your life while you're a child and carefree Adult life is a test of endurance Where the weakest fall And the strongest take advantage If I knew it would be like this I would have ended it all before I wanted to go back in time And stop my future Because I was happy before But today I only have anxiety attacks I wanted to go back in time And bury myself Because before I was naive But today I only have anxiety attack I wish I knew in the past What I knew in the future I know my parents weren't eternal But now I feel lost (yeah) I wish I knew in the past What I knew in the future I know my parents weren't eternal But now I feel lost (yeah) Too young to realize That I made a mistake I fight against my early choices Without having had the necessary guidance I fight against my demons Just wanting to save myself But I know I was flawed in a flawed and dirty society Too young to realize That I made a mistake yeah