You always needed the stage The center light, the louder name I played the clown, I played the friend But you were always the main event One spark, one trick too far One firework that broke my arms You vanished through the smoke and flame And I never saw you again I crawled out of that circus hell Alone, afraid, and burned to hell And all I wanted – just once – was you But you ran And I knew You ruined my life! You let me bleed in the dirt While you chased a dream and left me hurt You ruined my life! And then you smiled like nothin’ changed Like I should laugh through all the pain But I see the truth behind your eyes— And all I want to do is cry You ruined my life You ruined mine You called me best friend, Fizz, star of the show But when I needed you most, you let me go I lost my act, I lost my limbs I lost the fire inside my grin They sewed me back with wires and lies And I learned to dance with half my spine But not a word from you, not a note You just left me there alone Did you even care at all? Did you see me take that fall? Or did the spotlight make you blind— To the wreck you left behind? You ruined my life! You let me fall through the floor You turned your back and closed the door You ruined my life! And still you act like we were fine Like I'm just bitter, out of line But I lived the fire you lit that night And I still feel it when I fight You ruined my life You ruined mine I would've forgiven you If you’d just said the words But silence was your choice And silence always hurts I was there, reaching out You were the one who left And I’ve carried every flame On what was left of my chest You ruined my life! Not just the pain, not just the burns But every time the world still turns You ruined my life! And I wish I didn’t care this much But I do I do I always— You ruined my life And you don’t even know what that took from me