Carry an illness and practically know it by name. Seldom speaks for you,you learned to tune it away. But it wasn't easy Fond of your writing I dont need to see into you You hid behind the similes Fractal light in all shades of blue pebbles and mirrors I'm just jealous because I tried mapping out your mind Inconsistent ways, tangled and untied I watched your ends start to fray You felt buried from the start Tearing you apart, Constricting the free-beating of your heart I knew your postcard would say, "Wish you could stay,wish you felt the same way." Asked to be admitted,they put a lock on your door Subdued, medicated, face to linoleum floor And you tried to break away Painted window panes, bars behind the glass, molded to the frame You saw yourself in those days You felt buried from the start Tearing you apart, Constricting the free-beating of your heart. I knew your postcard would say, "Wish you could stay,wish you felt the same way." I am tearing up pieces of old news To mend the leaks in my open wounds, Protect your pressure points I refuse to press against Let your self renew Project the voice that I found for you Pull up the weeds,from the ground they grew Feel soil under your toes,it’s you You have forever Felt weaker when I bent, beaten to the end Folding on myself, too damaged to mend I couldn't hold all the weight You felt buried from the start Tearing you apart, Injuring yourself dragging from my arm I knew your postcard would say, "I know your new heart still desires to play And who would I be to keep it all for me?" Wish I could stay, wish I felt the same way.