This is my last apology This time I'm accepting me for me Beaten and broken down by the ones we love the most Passed by like a fucking ghost I am a slave to the doubt in my own head I'm a burden to everyone I've met I am a slave to the doubt in my own head I'm a burden 'til I'm dead Am I good as dead Or dead as God Enslaved to my own mind By a past that keeps me confined Am I good as dead Or dead as God I know I'm a burden at best In the world's eyes a fucking mess When I'm awake I'm not myself Trapped inside I don't want my mind Looking to the sky I replay my life Trapped from inside I don't want my mind I am a slave to the doubt in my own head I'm a burden to everyone I've met I am a slave to the doubt in my own head I'm a burden 'til I'm dead Am I good as dead Or dead as God Enslaved to my own mind By a past that keeps me confined Am I good as dead Or dead as God I know I'm a burden at best In the world's eyes a fucking mess When I'm awake I'm not myself Trapped inside I don't want my mind When I'm awake I'm not myself In my head Is where my body lays dead Dead as God Dead as God Dead as God