I swear I'm not sad everyday But everyday you see me I'm sad It's not that I want to I just kinda do And that makes you mad I swear that I'm trying to change And I'm saying this all over again It's just that this time is true I'll face it instead Of getting a new tattoo I know I've said this all before I know you can't take me, no more So this is me trying Pretendin' I'm not dying Just to keep you here for a little while So this is me writing Instead of keepin' inside me 'Cause I'm exploding, going downhill again But at least I'm doing it while you're here holding my hand I swear I'm not quiet everyday But I'm quiet most of the time I'm just questioning life Screaming at the sky I want to feel alright I swear that I try to have faith That I'm also friend of my friends But they just never reply Never say goodbye I'm a phase they pass by I know I said this before But everyone left So I'm still trying to make you stay a little bit more So this is me trying Pretendin' I'm not dying Just to keep you here for a little while This is me writing Instead of keepin' inside me 'Cause I'm exploding, going downhill again But at least I'm doing it while you're here holding my hand But at least I'm doing it while you're here holding my hand Oh I'm trying to feel alright again Again But I don't know if I ever did oh tell me when Tell me when I'm trying to feel love in my veins My veins But I'm scared that I'll be hurt again So this is me trying Pretendin' I'm not dying Just to keep you here for a little while So this is me writing Instead of keepin' inside me 'Cause I'm exploding, going downhill again But at least I'm doing it while you're here holding my hand