I'm sorry I've been so cold I'm guarding and I'm hardening bone At times it feels impossible to trust again That soft center of faith Is where I long to stay But memory jolts me away to self-protection My invisible armor Serves no purpose any longer I am lonely at the center of my life I want to lay my sword down I want to cry, I want to come home I don't want to be this strong anymore I'm slipping off this skin One I no longer fit in A traumatized version of myself My invisible armor Serves no purpose any longer My invisible armor weighs me down My invisible armor Serves a futile imaginary battle I am looking at the meaning of my life So brave, so shy So vulnerable, so alive I'm on a high wire above myself My invisible armor Another life lived and discarded I was tilting at the windmills of my past And you are here now waiting for me You believed and saw right through it I am standing at the center of my life My invisible armor My invisible armor My invisible armor weighs me down