Like chains that control me Like fog that mists up my sight Infectants Like hope sinking in Like rapid rattle that stuns me slowly These streams of doubt They drain out love out of me Though it’s so much in you My world is a tomb And every funeral inside I skipped, I left Like face fading in blue In a car that used to bring me to From where I'm far away From where I found love Though it’s so much in you My world is a tomb This streets wearing black I wander Her face bleeding blue Doubt is what you drew Am I seeing this again I'm wondering Felt helpless Completely surrendered to time Let me exit I could not explain to you why I'm not the one who deserves your trust And my feet keep me away From where I find love And then I knew It’s not the moment I can defeat My demons, my past, my sins It aches the same Sinking further I promised I won’t hurt instead Though I loved, but you saw That I'm not ok I stayed silent, dumb, aching Waiting for the day when it ends Though you were my help I am already dead And though this is my hell Inside of me it stays the same, forgive