Suffering and destroying myself They didn't even call on my birthday I should forget this pain (you will never forget) I am pathologically broken, I am a being in ruins Ruins, ruins, a being in ruins, ruins They just gave birth to me, I say internally 'Cause I can't smile and see a birthday cake The wounds are my ruin, my ruin You're alone child, you're lost In this world hungry for people with fears and weaknesses From my first cry until I left home They always said I was the black sheep My cries meant nothing My brother almost set my red hair on fire All the places I was once happy Turned to ashes, turned into pieces of history To be pathologically burned, to be broken from new It's an addiction you have for life Suffering and destroying myself They didn't even call on my birthday I should forget this pain (you will never forget) I am pathologically broken, I am a being in ruins Ruins, ruins, a being in ruins, ruins They just gave birth to me, I say internally 'Cause I can't smile and see a birthday cake The wounds are my ruin, my ruin All my boyfriends saw how hurt I was Why didn't they go to the hospital or call? I lied when I said I loved my brother I lied when I said my life was amazing A mintomaniac, a destroyed being Bring the dagger to this beautiful sinner All the places I've been happy They became memories rotting in my mind Give empathy and respect someone who is your blood It should be the minimum, but they didn't even give me that Suffering and destroying myself They didn't even call on my birthday I should forget this pain (you will never forget) I am pathologically broken, I am a being in ruins Ruins, ruins, a being in ruins, ruins They just gave birth to me, I say internally 'Cause I can't smile and see a birthday cake The wounds are my ruin, my ruin How many school parties haven't you been to? How many photos did you burn? How many memories have you broken? I never got an: I love you, son I've never been loved And don't cover me with kindness How many times have you killed me? How many times have I become ruins, and you pretended not to see? Suffering and destroying myself They didn't even call on my birthday I should forget this pain (you will never forget) I am pathologically broken, I am a being in ruins Ruins, ruins, a being in ruins, ruins They just gave birth to me, I say internally 'Cause I can't smile and see a birthday cake The wounds are my ruin, my ruin I will forgive all the ways you hurt me But I will never forget how I became a being of a thousand pieces I will forgive all things But I will never forget them