Dawning in any bed Living for the grace of hurting someone Giving fake smiles, pretending to be fine Dark circles under my eyes every time I sleep with someone Wandering through London feeling the air Pretending I'm someone happy When I see another door I get goosebumps Because I know that if I don't get in I'll be losing adrenaline My heart made of polyester My dreams shaped by people My inflamed scars I never told you to go I just needed to breathe, I needed to pretend some more I lie like a mintomaniac 'Cause I feel like a butterfly that hasn't flown I knew that was our last kiss It was torture, it was torture, it was like losing all your senses It was torture, it was torture, it was like seeing the wounds coming back The night I decided to stay in one bed It was cold, dark, harrowing, incredibly painful In November it was the stop I was left with the worst memories I can't change what I said, but I know I hurt you But burn all our best things It won't make me happy And it hurts, burns and suffocates My heart made of polyester My dreams shaped by people My inflamed scars I never told you to go I just needed to breathe, I needed to pretend some more I lie like a mintomaniac 'Cause I feel like a butterfly that hasn't flown I knew that was our last kiss It was torture, it was torture, it was like losing all your senses It was torture, it was torture, it was like seeing the wounds coming back