On the hillside covered in blood I met my soul She was unclean, she looked gray I looked at the whole world for just one minute It looked like fun, but when I saw it I was already in a grave Who fired the fucking gun? I felt it on my skin, it was nothing more than a graze It hurt, but nothing would hurt more than seeing my soul being impure It took me a long time to realize, when I saw it I was already covered in blood I felt my worst fears become the purest reality People say: Face your fears, but talk is too easy Doing it is fucking hard It took me a long time to realize I wasn't alive anymore Why didn't anyone cry? They were my sin It took me a long time, it took me a long time to realize I was dead These walls saw me as a banshee And I also see myself like this, I see myself as a nobody wandering without feeling I could shoot myself and no one would worry And it hurts so much to know that you're not anyone's priority But now you gotta pull yourself together 'cause they got called you weak And they put you in a cage full of snakes Fight for your life, but talk is cheap for a dick Do it in my place, do it in my place, do it, do it, do it in my fucking place It took me a long time to realize I was dissipating I don't regret drinking the poison It tastes like revenge, it's kind of bittersweet, it's kind of mesmerizing You're nobody's priority, child, don't cry It took you a long time to realize, child, that you were already inside the asylum It took me a long time to realize that I was no longer in control of the world But don't cry, fight, that way you will prove your worth What if I don't want to fight? I've already cut myself too much The scale was no longer physical, it was mental, fucking mental And you took too long, and you took too long, and you took too long Child, you are lost in the world where only the strong win And you are a defenseless animal, but don't feel pain, it is psychological It took me a long time to realize It took me a long time to realize It took me a long time to realize It took me a long time to realize That the world is a battlefield which I already lost centuries ago and you will be next