Waking up from yet another lie Cold sweating and shaking all over my body My birthdays were faked I was forged, lost Imaginary birthday candles Wishes for a life that never happened Guilty cries, now I'm the ashes of this old house The pain is still fresh A little piece of me still lives A party full of ghosts And I don't eat birthday cake I'm a soul that's not welcome here I'm stuck with this day for the rest of eternity Punches, wounds and cries Screams, drinks and full Moon nights One now that I'm still alive And a past that I lived very well Birthday surprises and gifts Paper boats and party hats Burning and turning to ashes A fireplace full of memories of a happy child A day that was supposed to be happy It ended in blood and tears A guest list A passing fire Sweets I've never smelled A cardiac arrest A plea, a cry for help A silent house Pain that will never be forgotten Blood mixed with strawberry syrup People pass by that floor A sinful floor A crooked look A destroyed cake Police everywhere I never got to see my beautiful birthday cake Party balloons, jelly and happy smiles Wine, goodbyes and a lost life I will never forget that day 'Cause I'm stuck in it forever New clothes, lies and who will he marry? I think with Lilly Everything that made me smile Today it causes me pain and tears Memories in gift bags A day that was supposed to be happy Ended up in a tomb full of flowers A lost pulse A cry for help Crying from people who loved me I don't think I ever forgot the faces, how it broke me My pieces together with the porpurinas It was together with the winds and the rain I think my birthday cake is still there I don't think I'll ever find all the pieces of me that were lost that day A truth that will never be forgotten It wasn't an accident, it wasn't a cardiac arrest I wanted to eat what they made for me But I didn't eat my birthday cake