It shouldn't hurt as much as it does now Maybe I sharpened the knife when I was unconscious My cord turned to golden ashes, my love slowly died The sails no longer guide the ship's path I'm sorry, I used you as my medicine, as my painkiller I used every last pill in the bottle It was intense, it was perhaps one of the best But I threw it all when the car was moving It hurts like hell, it's distressing I didn't want to abandon ship But I would drown, I'm sorry I know I thought only of myself Maybe this is my sin I didn't want to have one last conversation I went into a state of panic I entered the white room and collapsed I wish I had done more, I wish I had made the greatest proof of love I threw myself into the thorns, I threw myself off the cliff My psychological problems will still kill me What if I hadn't given in to my fears? What if I had made the greatest proof of love? We'd both be lying there looking at each other I set fire to our love I didn't even cry, my head was a mess I was in the panic room, I had the knife in my hands Ready to attack, ready to be prayed for Blood gushed, someone was pushed down the stairs I wanted to jump from the tallest building It was like self-harm, it was the worst of the worst That was my worst and best crime I have no regrets, only about my actions towards you I didn't want to have one last conversation I went into a state of panic I entered the white room and collapsed I wish I had done more, I wish I had made the greatest proof of love I threw myself into the thorns, I threw myself off the cliff My psychological problems will still kill me What if I hadn't given in to my fears? What if I had made the greatest proof of love? We'd both be lying there looking at each other Because if I hadn't hurt, I wouldn't have found someone to hurt Why hurt people hurt fragile people Because if I hadn't hurt, I wouldn't have found someone to hurt Why hurt people hurt fragile people Because if I hadn't hurt, I wouldn't have found someone to hurt Why hurt people hurt fragile people I didn't want to have one last conversation I went into a state of panic I entered the white room and collapsed I wish I had done more, I wish I had made the greatest proof of love I threw myself into the thorns, I threw myself off the cliff My psychological problems will still kill me What if I hadn't given in to my fears? What if I had made the greatest proof of love? We'd both be lying there looking at each other