Please, come help It started with me, with sixteen When no one thought anything It was all for fun (and also fun) But the fun's become Pains, a lot of heartbreak Too much giving, no taste Sleepless nights and fake bias As if I'm being honest It's not what I thought it would be Giving my life and learning my vices Spending my nights with Something I know that kills me It's not how I thought it would feel Numbing my days and throwing away Everything I could be I know what I'm doing, I know should stop the pain Blurry the pain, block out the shame and do it again I look in the mirror, wipe a few tears, I hate who I am 'Cause I can't give it up, no, I can't get it enough (Blurry the pain, block out the shame and do it again) I can't stop myself, someone, please, come help Here I am at twenty-three This isn't who I'm supposed to be I've lost control (lost control) And no one knows I'm so out of touch with reality I thought that these things would help me My world's been broke I can't let go if I'm being honest It's not what I thought it would be Giving my life and learning my vices Spending my nights with Something I know that kills me It's not how I thought it would feel Numbing my days and throwing away Everything I could be I know what I'm doing, I know should stop the pain Blurry the pain, block out the shame and do it again I look in the mirror, wipe a few tears, I hate who I am 'Cause I can't give it up, no, I can't get it enough (Blurry the pain, block out the shame and do it again) I can't stop myself, someone, please, come help For a moment, I see the hell I've caused And all the people I've hurt before disregard My better judgement, damnit, I can't help it Only one more time, I swear this is the last time that I Blurry the pain, block out the shame and do it again I look in the mirror, wipe a few tears, I hate who I am 'Cause I can't give it up, no, I can't get it enough (Blurry the pain, block out the shame and do it again) I can't stop myself, someone, please, come help