Don’t look at me with those judgment eyes Don’t stare at me like you don’t know I see it Disappear for days Just to bring you up Would you call that love? Would call me up? You’re so manipulative But so sweet that mascarate it You still wouldn’t hear me if you weren’t broken inside You ask me if I'm fine You do all the time So would you like to hear my thoughts? Baby if you don’t move I'm packing my stuff And I’ll leave you Next week Please tell me: Don’t go Pretend that you care Pretend you’re not ashamed and scared of me But I understand you 'Cause I've been feeling too But I know the truth I got nineteen reasons to give it up on you Don’t say the word everyone use to leave But don’t leave me without a word Seems all men now days are mediocre actors And it’s not even fucking metaphor You disguised really well But the show is over No I won’t leave 'cause I can’t I got a thousand ghosts at home And I wonder if it's worth it Having one more for these lonely nights You’re everywhere I'm wide aware Would really like to hear my thoughts? Baby if you don’t move I'm packing my stuff And I’ll leave you Next week Please tell me: Don’t go Pretend that you care Pretend you’re not ashamed and scared of me But I understand you (I try too) 'Cause I've been feeling too But I know the truth I got nineteen reasons to give it up on you They sympathize with me for the time I couldn't hold it Wish I didn’t cry And they don’t know I often think of dying I can’t kill myself, but I keep on trying And if someday it works I would feel a traitor A liar, a selfish, a weaker prayer A love self hater A living failure A nightmare simulator Can’t get rid of that Wish I could not care That my life is a mess What if I can’t regret? My nose stings like I need something to live for My brain erase the things that hurts me more Suddenly I know nothing all Don’t know what’s good for me Don’t know what’s good for love I must deny to me That I loved you for sure This is the Cold War I’ve been here before You’re cruel, and so hot You’re fun, but you’re not Forget the desires My news are on fire In the end of it all I'm just feeling too much It’ll always go deeper I'm just a teenager I can’t open up I can heal my hurts I’ll just live my life till the day I die I try to cover under titanium sheets The reason that breaks me every day That the nineteenth reason is always me And I tried to love myself To somebody, come and love me I couldn’t let my birthday go away I would turn back to be nobody People think I live for my waist I might be killed by prejudice Am I'm going to be famous drowning in drugs and whisky? I thought it would break with you But I ended with me I'm afraid of therapy But if you want to hear my thoughts