How did I end up here? Another bullshit year Drowning in my fears Oh Just a stupid girl In her own messed up world Trynna disappear Will they even care if I'm not here? I'm lost can't be found I speak but make no sound My thoughts weigh me down Will I swim or will I drown? Words are spoken underwater Through the echoes in the waves Maybe everything gets better If I don't try to escape Feel A burning in my lungs Think I'm too far gone To get myself out this time I hate when they tell me that I should try harder And there's no such thing as a mental disorder It's all in my head That's what they said Then why can't I get the fuck out of my bed They probably wouldn't care if I'm not here I'm lost, can't be found I speak but make no sound And my thoughts weigh me down Will I swim or will I drown? Words are spoken underwater Through the echoes in the waves Maybe everything gets better If I don't try to escape Don't wake me up I've had enough Just leave me numb and painless Don't wake me up My time is up Just set me free I know they wouldn't care If I'm not here I'm lost, can't be found I speak but make no sound And my thoughts weigh me down Will I swim or will I drown Words are spoken underwater Through the echoes in the waves Maybe everything gets better If I don't try to escape (If I don't try)