No energy, unable to sleep at night Or stay awake during sun time, Just overwhelming sadness, And hating myself. Having mental images of stabbing myself, Cracking my ribcage open with my hands, Pulling out my insides - Terrible stuff. Sometimes I felt like I was crazy. I should see a doctor and get some medication. Terrible stuff Just overwhelming sadness Stabbing myself But I do not trust Psychiatric drugs To not have side effects. On the radio Dr. Andrew Weil Recommended taking fish oil to get better