I always listen to him put me down and I can't speak I do everything they ask But it's never enough My heart is breaking every time he opens his mouth And my mind is kind of confused Feelings are exploding every time I breathe Will this pain have a stopped Will I have that light that everyone wants Or will I always see emptiness? I'm ready to negotiate my life I could kill myself and no one will care I tryna to be what everyone asks me to be I only wish good for them I could give back what they give me But what can I do if I hate myself? I'm trying my best but I think I can take more And so much accumulated pain Will I endure and overcome? But I think I won't make it through today I know I'm not the best Bu I gotta all the days not to kill me There's so much pain that I keep, I tryna to talk to my friends But they never listens to me They're always on the side of those who always bring me down I tried today to be the best than yesterday but I'll never be the way they want But all I ask is only the best for them My friends became my enemy And I hate my life and how God made me If I can end myself in a minute Will I have that light that everyone wants Or will I always see emptiness? I'm ready to negotiate my life I could kill myself and no one will care I tryna to be what everyone asks me to be I only wish good for them I could've give back what they give me But what can I do if I hate myself? I'm trying my best but I think I'll bear more And so much accumulated pain Will I endure and overcome? But I think I won't make it through today I think I'm gonna blow myself to pieces I think I'm afraid to be happy You know what I mean is goodbye I'm alone again (I don't know if I'll survive today) I'm judged like hell (and I'm not me anymore) You broke me inside, I feel like I'll lose myself soon You treat me like I'm trash (yeah-eh-eh) I fucked myself up because of you Sorry I'm not as strong as I wish I was God I accept you as my only savior I just wish I had a father But apparently only you are worthy So I give myself to you To ease this pain that I'm feeling I tryna to be what everyone asks me to be I only wish good for them I could've give back what they give me But what can I do if I hate myself? I'm trying my best but I think I can take more And so much accumulated pain Will I hold on and overcome? But I think I won't make it through today I think I'm gonna blow myself to pieces I guess I'm afraid of being happy You know what I mean is goodbye I'm alone again (I don't know if I'll survive today) I'm judged like hell (and I'm not me anymore) You broke me inside I feel like I'll lose myself soon I gotta get out of this hell I'm almost self-destructing Now I'm hurting like a dog I'm gonna move away I guess I'm afraid of being hurt, I thought it would be less pain