I was born in a country built on nepotism Stuck in the 4th f’ing century in its anachronism South to north, it amazed me with its fundamentalism If I sound harsh, forgive my cynicism I was raised surrounded by perfectionism I was praised in my fountain of illusionism This mechanism taught me all the pessimism, existentialism I think I need an exorcism I got resilience What didn't kill me gave me so much experience The world can be so hideous But it taught me that I got that resilience Had a cancer diagnosis at 23 I needed answers, WTF was going on with me So much anger, confusion I fell for delusions Of hell and seclusion, myself as inhuman All the drugs, psychosis wasn't far they said All the blood, supernovas were inside my head Thought doctors were idiots, well I was delirious This shit's ignominious Oblivious Insidious I got resilience What didn't kill me gave me so much experience The world can be so hideous But it taught me that I got that resilience Paradox: Hardship teaches happiness I care a lot and hard shit made it obvious If my pressure drops, tachycardic in my dizziness No weariness can get to this assuredness, my diligence I didn't know how much l needed to express Couldn't let it go, the crutch of having to suppress My openness Fastidious So serious Insidious Obedience really hits I got resilience I got resilience What didn't kill me gave me so much experience The world can be so hideous But it taught me that I got that resilience