You know like sometimes man I just, I just sit in my room, you know? And just stare at the ceiling Just trying to understand life, you know? I'm tired of hurting, just wanna be a better person? I'm sorry I'm not who I used to be I guess I used to be a sucker for Love but I promise ain't no more using me I used to love you like it was two of me But I really can't be mad because I'm glad of what I grew to be I guess that's how it goes usually I write this eulogy for you and me With these said stipulations You know in order for you to grow You have to stop watering dead situations Even though in your heart you may feel sad inside But that pain is only temporary There's no need to agonize One day you'll be glad it died And satisfied knowing that you did All that you can do, so what if nobody understands you All that matters is that you learn to light your own candle In other words, the light inside So that when times get dark you Can always see things on the brighter side Because you have that light inside I guess that's how it go, you know? We live and we learn We grow through, what we grow through But don't let life break you Don't let failed relationships make you harder Because when you do you loose your happiness You lose your sense of love and how to love You know? And create your own happiness Happiness reliant on anybody others than yourself Is only temporary, and love yourself It's a cold world our here Nobody really wants to be alone And its human nature to be passionate But when somebody continues to hurt you Why do you accept them back again Are you willing to sacrifice a few months In exchange for your happiness Maybe you're also afraid of being alone And that's the only things that's stopping you But its never too late or impossible to find love in solitude I know it may bother you and inside of you it may Feel like when doves cry But sometimes it's more than okay for you to let go And maybe let love die And honestly sometimes I sit in my room And I cry myself to sleep Trying not to let these suicidal thoughts Get the best of me, I really don't believe Love and relationships are in my destiny Because everybody that I've been with Has made a complete mess of me So I really don't think I have much left in me I know God is only testing me But I'm still here in this deep depression I guess I didn't learn the first time and so I have to repeat the lesson You know, everything in life comes with a deeper message But deep inside of me I'm still trying to fight the feelings Of leaving this world even though I know I have a right to live it This really can't be the life I'm living And I remember that night so vivid You left me in the street with blood in my eyes Without a care in the world, like you had nothing inside I guess that's what I get for trusting your lies See man, like life is a roller coaster, I guess, you know? But I guess its worth the ride You know? There's ups and downs, there's trials and tribulations There's hurt, there's pain, and there is happiness You know? But all of this help us become better people And we all have suicidal thoughts, at least in my world we do In this world, there is no escape, the only escape is within you You have to dig deep inside of you and find that thing that makes you happy Find that thing that totally fulfill you in life Because life is all about self fulfillment, no body else can fill your cup It is up to you to fill your own cup And that is the purpose of life Self fulfillment and learning to love yourself You know, we all go through the same things, I am no different from you I am no different from you Love is what binds us It's unfortunate that those that say they love us Prove otherwise through their actions And that's when you have you separate yourself from all the negativity and all the toxic situations And all the toxic relationships and work on you Because at the end of the day man And woman It's all about you It's all about you Yeah, I pray for your healing I pray for your happiness, all abundance It's going to be okay