Last night I almost crashed my car Thinking about where we started It's just something I do from time to time I trace our steps now and again I think I loved you even then That very first night Or maybe that's just hindsight What a time it was, those halcyon days Back when I could feel your gaze Without that would've could've should've ache We were bolder, just not bold enough Now we're older, I'm still so in love And I think that it will always be this way Another eight years And I'll still be right here Last night I put my records on I never listened to the songs Cause every note that played, I saw your face And I smile and laugh with other girls I choke out promises of whole worlds Then you walk in and I can breathe again I wish I was lying to you when I say You're the reason no one ever stays Haven't felt your eyes on me for months But I see you every day Sometimes I dare to dream of something bigger I break down, blame it on the liquor And all I know is you would keep me sane Another eight years And I'll still be right here And I'm terrified That one day you're gonna wake up And you'll realize I was all you really needed all along And I've really tried Tried so hard to kick this habit But I think I'll die Knowing how good we could have had it If I'd just been brave If I'd said your name Just once, then never stopped Maybe you'd have stayed Maybe I'd be saved Maybe then I'd feel enough I can't stand more dreams about you I'm living half a life without you Ever since you left your heart with me that night The night we almost got it right You came to me in dreams last night With all my words stacked up from years gone by And your smile and your touch let me know it was alright And then I woke up all alone I watched my hand reach for the phone I called you without really knowing why