I start to search all the dark places that I have found All the deep creases in my mind that are torn up somehow I want to keep the pace I want to figure it out I’ve got to do it this way If I don’t, everything’s lost Have you ever really noticed the blanket of shame from the torment and pain That you realize that no one’s ever been there Have you ever looked at the violence you hide all the drowning inside You can’t escape, it’s always been there I dig a hole inside my head to let the demons go I cut my flesh to purge the hatred felt so long ago I want to keep the pace I want to figure it out I’ve got to do it this way If I don’t, everything’s lost Have you ever really noticed the blanket of shame from the torment and pain That you realize that no one’s ever been there Have you ever looked at the violence you hide all the drowning inside You can’t escape, it’s always been there Close my eyes, I go to sleep (look at me) It’s always there, I start to weep Close my eyes, I go to sleep (I'm all alone) It’s always there, I start to weep Close my eyes, I go to sleep (look at me) It’s always there, I start to weep Close my eyes, I go to sleep (I'm still here) It’s always there, I start to weep Close my eyes, I go to sleep (look at me) It’s always there, I start to weep Close my eyes, I go to sleep (I'm all alone) It’s always there, I start to weep Close my eyes, I go to sleep (look at me) It’s always there, I start to weep Close my eyes, I go to sleep It’s always there, I start to weep Have you ever really noticed the blanket of shame from the torment and pain That you realize that no one’s ever been there Have you ever looked at the violence you hide all the drowning inside You can’t escape, it’s always been there (there, there)