I'm living out my own demise The type shit I seen, it leave a nigga tramatized I'm balancing out all my lows, I be under high And they wonder why Little do they realize, or see the pain behind my eyes Feeling so unsual, it's been that way for More than days a couple years or so They tell me that it's my anxiety, like yeah I know They tell me that sobrietys the only road The boat rocks all night nonstop (yeah) High tide nonstop I don't wanna surtf no more I'm in hell, but I don't want it to be my turf no more I fell kurt cobain, sometimes I can't stand this earth no more Drowning drowning where's the short? And even though on land, when it rains it pours What's the hope for? (uh) it's what the dope for Killing my pain like I'm sore It's not my body it's my heart Couln't fell my body from the start It's tearing me apart, but I'm still a work of art I'm living out my own demise The type shit I seen, it leave a nigga tramatized I'm balancing out all my lows, I be under high And they wonder why Little do they realize, or see the pain behind my eyes Feeling so unsual, it's been that way for More than days a couple years or so They tell me that it's my anxiety, like yeah I know They tell me that sobrietys the only road