[Joe Budden:] Look, I woke up without a heart beat But I remember we was just in the car deep Was at a light and got approached by a car thief He pulled out but didn't ask for no car keys A loud noise without a voice But I'm trying to scream out, shit is not fair I can't tell you where I'm at or how I got here Surrounded by all white, maybe it's just cloudy Escorted by 2 men who knew everything about me Both of em' so strong, kept saying hold on Feel like me souls gone, naked no clothes on I know this can't be my faith I screamed "Wait" As they dropped me in front of a gate They left no trace I can see my every breath like a cold day Stood before a man with no face He said to me to me [God:] Please don't make this any harder [Joe Budden:] Who the fuck is you? [God:] My child, I'm your father [Joe Budden:] I only got one dad [God:] Is that a fact to you? He left you when you was young I brought him back to you You're real close to heaven Few get to step in Now tell what you've done to deserve to be let in [Joe Budden:] Look I'm far from a Christian, not big on religion But ain't done to much wrong my entire time living Never killed, never tried too Though I've been lied too, was once suicidal Never read the Bible I always been a caretaker, tried to nurse people At times it backfired, hurt people, hurt people Plus I never use your name in vein But you should know everything I'm being asked explained [God:] I know that you stole from your mothers purse [Joe Budden:] You can't count that, that was way back when [God:] It's still a sin [Joe Budden:] But I was 10 [God:] You rob people, stolen [Joe Budden:] Yeahh and you made me see jail [God:] But I also see you lay your hands on a female Sold drugs to parents, none of that was needed Abandoned your child with every girl you cheated Done wrong to people that only want the best for you Anytime you thought you were alone, I was next to you [Joe Budden:] When it comes to baby mom's God, you gave me the worst one [God:] But that was your second child Joe, you shouldn't killed the first one [Joe Budden:] I ain't have a job, ain't have a pot to piss in [God:] Look, I gave you a gift and you made the wrong decision Held on to resentments even in doing business I lead by example, I teach forgiveness Your entry can not be guaranteed Not when you live with 'Anger, Envy, Greed Pride, Sloth, Lust' even 'Gluttony' Everything you shouldn't if you wouldn't join my company [Joe Budden:] Look, I'm only human I ain't perfect [God:] That I understand, when I take you out a jam You don't even think to worship And when you do You never talk about what you could do for me, It's what I could do for you I blessed you with health, family and wealth But all the blessing you receive, you still always want help [Joe Budden:] Yea there's been times in my life I needed help to make money But why everything I love you manage to take from me Yet you stand there and question a nigga that tries hard And finds a way when you keep dealing them fuck up cards You make mistakes like me, far as I can see I think it's a mockery when ever rich niggas win the lottery Gave us Bush twice, god I hate to be rude But you let skinny niggas starve, give obese niggas food The nerve when you telling I don't deserve to stay here When you gave us drugs and guns you put aids here Take a look at you, yo ass is cold hearted The hard shit is that you bring baby's into the world retarded I know most my actions put me in a cell But how you mad at me when you put me into hell [God:] See my child you need gratitude, maybe just a sample I never give a person anything they can't handle Don't tell me about everything you've had to go through There's reasons for my actions even if I've never showed you Keep trying with you, all you did was hurt me Still gave you chances to prove that you was worthy And so I sat with you on the train I asked you for change, you kept calling me names Probly didn't notice, I was the store clerk You put the gun to me, get money for more work My child, I know you have it in you to indeed stop This is not your final calling just your brief stop Hope you hear my words and understand So when I see you back, you'll should a better man Look at life different next time we see each other There be no need for talk when ever we meet each other