I don't know how to be in love And I don't think I've really ever been And I'm afraid of it but I believe That all I'll ever be is the man who leaves and leaves again 'Cause every time I think I'll fall I never really fall all the way And everyone I go for is Dead, or dead set on hurting me Or holding me in place I've been writing love songs for so long It's all I know how to do by now 'Cause no one wants to be my friend And no one wants a one night stand And if I could then I'd be loved But I don't wanna be loved like that 'Cause if you get that kind of love you gotta give it And if they hurt you you're supposed to forgive it And I don't know why everyone says that it's wrong But I want people to love me like a friend or a song I don't know how to be in love And turn what's gray into pink 'Cause when I try it always comes out as green And if I say I'm not in love yet no one knows what to think 'Cause there's a boy And I wish that I could take up his time And when I come around he stops and stares at me But he'd interpret it all wrong if I asked him to be mine I've been writing love songs for so long It's all I know how to do by now 'Cause no one wants to be my friend And no one wants a one night stand And if I could then I'd be loved But I don't wanna be loved like that 'Cause if you get that kinda love you gotta give it And if they hurt you you're supposed to forgive it And I want an audience who notices when I'm gone I want to be loved like a favorite song I faked crushes all the time when I was a little kid And I don't know why I lied and said I liked 'em 'Cause I never did I think I'm in love every time someone compliments me And with every other person that I ever meet 'Cause I'm still pretty sure I'm gay But I'm pretty sure that I'm gray Nobody seems to understand That friendship feels exactly the same as romance And this life is so long It's all I know how to do by now 'Cause I feel like I've never had a friend And it's so exhausting to pretend And if I could then I'd be loved but everyone tells me that If you get that kinda love you gotta give it And when they hurt you you're supposed to forgive it And I just want a friend who'll tell me I finally belong I just want to write somebody's favorite song