I'm alive, that's a plus But it's getting heavy, better lighten up I'm a liar, I'm a lush I don't think I'm ready to let go of the rush Hold on so tightly to my pride You'll never see the tears I cry Behind the curtain where I hide Once they dry, I'm runnin' to the spotlight But I don't wanna lose control I feel the ceiling cavin' in And all the lessons that unfold I learn again and again and again And I don't wanna lose control I feel the pressure cruisin' in And all the lessons that unfold I learn again and again and again And again and again and again and again Fall in love, call my bluff Think he's on a knee but he's just pulling the rug All alone, all for what? Look around but I don't see someone I can trust And now the blame is only mine I'm in a hell of my design 'Cause I don't know how to define What I want, what I don't, now I've run out of time I don't wanna lose control I feel the ceiling cavin' in And all the lessons that unfold I learn again and again and again I don't wanna lose control I feel the pressure cruisin' in And all the lessons that unfold I learn again and again and again And again and again and again and again All of my history plays out in front of me Like they're reruns on the screen All the same mistakes, fuckin' up every take And I'm the same in every scene Killin' off the cast, showin' up in all of my past Like I'm some human guillotine Calling "cut, that's enough," I should go with my gut But I don't 'cause I know that I I don't wanna lose control I feel the ceiling cavin' in And all the lessons that unfold I learn again and again and again I don't wanna lose control I feel the pressure cruisin' in And all the lessons that unfold I learn again and again and again And again and again and again and again And again and again and again and again (ooh) And again and again and again and again And again and again and again and again (ah) Ha-ah Ah, ah-ah Ah-ah