I would write to you But I think letters would not be enough To tell you how I feel about you It was so hard to find someone like you But now I lost you On stanwood avenue And the party was a dream The taste of her kiss was bittersweet The summer is ending And all I think about is how am I going to live Some drinks And I'm finally sober I'm just looking for a way to deal with my emotions When I look at you, it's hard to breathe Hugging you and kissing you seems impossible to me But I would be happy Would be happy It's hard to breathe Staring in the mirror Some epiphanies in my head The dynamites we explode together Became explosions that I couldn't see And New Jersey was a dream You are disconnected from me I need to find a way to get over you I met the dark side of the Moon Some drinks And I'm finally sober I'm just looking for a way to deal with my emotions When I look at you, it's hard to breathe Hugging you and kissing you seems impossible to me But I would be happy Would be happy It's hard to breathe So I go into the water I close my eyes I let it drown me slowly So I don't have to cry What is a knife in my heart If it's enough to lie that I'm fine You are drunk And I'm finally clean See your face everyday It's really hard for me But at least I'm free And I will be happy Finally clean And I will be happy