Thought about it again and again You would allow me if I'd stumble right in Make the mess that I'd leave for you Never know what you're talking into I've been trying again I've been lying again I've been telling myself What, what if I had myself, I'd find the rest hiding there I confess it's harder than ever but I can't wait till I am awake then I'll Have myself, I'll find a way out of here Time to time I slip out of my head Second guessing while I still pretend I'm in control but I have no clue Whether or not I'll come through I've been lying again I've been trying again I've been telling myself What, what if I had myself, I'd find the rest hiding there I confess it's harder than ever but I can't wait till I am awake then I'll Have myself, I'll find a way out of here In my mind I've rehearsed it so well On the outside you never could tell That I'm dying without you here I pretend with you everything's clear I dream about the way it would feel I plan the day when I could just see you Looking back at me with that new face I know that I am here in the right place I have myself, I finally found you I have myself, I finally found you I have myself, I finally found you I have myself, I finally, finally found you Finally found you I finally found you Finally, finally found you