Yeah! I wake up every morning, with my head up in a daze I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah? I battle with depression, but the question still remains Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage? And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay? Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage And it obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me! 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I think I'm going nowhere, like a rat trapped in a maze Every wall that I knocked down is just a wall that I replace I'm gonna race against myself and try to keep a steady pace How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case? Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take But my therapist won't tell me that I'm going through a stage Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay Motherfucker, now you got my attention I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing And what if I were to lie, tell you everything is fine? Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified I fell asleep at the wheel again Crashed my car just to feel again Obliterate me, disintegrate me, annihilate me! 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular fucking monster Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker! We're sick and tired of wondering Praying to a God that you don't believe You're searching for the truth in the lost and found So the question I ask is: Where the fuck is your God now? 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster