When you look at me I'm tired And teary eyes I'm the clown that always tries To take the pain away To make it disappear That's my greatest mistake Years and years I've been trying my best To make you stay and To be okay Over and over I'm falling too hard Coz there is no one To catch me when I fall Away I left myself lose me And I'm not the one to blame Away Tired of being the suckerpunch Everyday I'm not Judas, my baby You're killing me when you go I'm the worst clown, baby Maybe I should quit Just leave a pretty note That no one's gonna read I wish badly I could rest Years and years I've been trying my best To make you stay and To be okay Over and over I'm falling too hard Coz there is no one To catch me when I fall Away I left myself lose me And I'm not the one to blame Away Tired of being the suckerpunch Everyday I'm not Judas, my baby