Looking in the mirror past my reflection Asking myself all of these questions Like, do I really love myself and I can I really trust myself? I feel like I’m not really here, like I’m just waiting to disappear I haven’t been myself since 2012 like my minds a prison and my body’s the cell Asking myself all of these questions Like did I really learn my lesson? And will I ever change, or will I always be the same? I don’t wanna be the same I wanna grow I wanna change But I’m scared that I might disappear I don’t wanna fade away today Looking in the mirror past my reflection Asking myself all of these questions Like can I really love somebody else? If I don’t even love myself, can u trust somebody else? If I don’t even trust myself You don’t know the real me You just know who I pretend to be You don’t know the real me You just know who I pretend to be Asking myself all of these questions Like did I really learn my lesson? And will I ever change, or will I always be the same? I don’t wanna be the same I wanna grow, I swear I wanna change I don't wanna fade away I don’t wanna fade today