What is this life? Seriously, what is this life? I can't help but repeat this phrase in my head As absurd as it is, as longing is my pain What is so difficult for you to understand? I have lived in such a mess Thoughts in disorder to make it all complicated I have tried to calm down, I have tried believe me Now I know it's in vain if ever I try again If you ask me, yes I know what's going on I know what's going to happen What's gonna happen is I'm just gonna live the same way Living the same fucking torture over and over again