I'm still like a child in oh so many ways More ways than you I'm sure And that’s why I’ve reached this point Where I am smothered and dampened In my own skin Can't even remember what it’s like to be a bird on a wire Wire in the city, tall post far away from all the hard working people I need time It takes me such time But still look me in the eye and ask more seriously Don’t hesitate to stop this train 'cause folks believe in you And we that believe all have our own vices Smothered and dampened in our own ways I have years and years of undoing to do And it’s a lonely road to respect It's two steps forward and two steps back Leaving me where I started A child at heart and in practice All we can do is try to make beauty I feel the tugs on my heart strings so hard And so selfishly in all directions I hate what you play But I can't help but love when my heart strings get tugged I splurge every day But it gets me no closer to knowing I'm loved When lay people work on their bodies so hard I double take it But they’ve got a kick in the ass from behind And a spine that can take it