I'm trapped in my room My mind s going like boom I just wish that I could care less I just feel I will never get there Something keeps saying You are the worst, don't keep going While I text my ex I don't know, don't think that's working I don't want to face the truth that I deserve it I don't want to realize how I spend my time in bullshit My bed is a fucking mess, my room fucking stinks I just wish this was a tale, I m not living a dream Every time I look at you on my phone screen I don't have the will to get out, I just suffer rewatching our things I think about every time we spend together I think about the things, how I could do fucking better? Miss you in my band, in my bed, in my life Miss you when I'm hanging out, I wish you were my wife I need some time to rest, I need some time to think I need some time to suicide, I need another drink Rising, rising In my mind I can't deny that Sometimes I cry Rising, rising In my mind I can't deny that Sometimes I cry In front of my own mistakes I can not see a way out It remembers me of all of those times I tried to not let you down I could ask you for forgiveness but for that I need repent Like for that time I did your sister, and I saw no wrong in that Sure I'm no good example of nothing Far from what you would expect from a caring mate Who is there all-day Fulfilling your need for attention without receiving a pay Rock bottom is where I am But I can not see the ground Maybe if I keep on digging I can turn my life around Said our love would last forever And you nodded your head to me If I was a bit more clever Your lie would not hurt as this Rising, rising In my mind I can't deny that Sometimes I cry Rising, rising In my mind I can't deny that Sometimes I cry Rising, rising In my mind I can't deny that Sometimes I cry Rising, rising In my mind I can't deny that Sometimes I cry