I've been, I've been through a lot of crazy things in my life And somehow you're always there to Always there to pick up the pieces and accept me for who I am So listen I never meant for you to deal with all this pressure Or for you to deal with all this pain that don't belong to you You carry all my burdens from my past on a stretcher So the very least that I can do is write this song for you Baby you don't have to choose to stay but yet you do it anyway And for a moment I get glimpses of what's in the heavens gates You show me beauty in the rain, even smiling when it's pouring The creases on the corners of my lips still feel so foreign to my senses I sense that you might leave me in an instant You don't, it's just my insecurities are up to mischief You reassure me, you show me love and then it cures me Not with words because the actions of your promise does it for me It's lovely, I'm used to feeling cold that's below zero sub ze-ro beneath my mind that if I wish I could not unsee It's crazy, I know the baggage in my trunk is ugly but you still choose to love me How can you love someone so damaged? Feel it in my palms, feeling so beyond you don't know how to respond Everyday this thing gets harder to manage Been there from the start even when you saw the black that's covering my heart I showed you scars that are deeper than what you have known and you tell me I've never looked more beautiful So I'm sorry that I'm damaged I'm sorry for the pain I'm sorry that you probably have to deal with it again I said I'm sorry for the pain but I can't help this shit, I wish you never felt this shit Promise you're my angel but Imma probably go to hell for this Mentally I am sick and I don't choose to break your fucking heart My life's a tragic flick and I ain't choose to play this part I'll take apart my heart and let you find the missing pieces It's lost inside the dark and being consumed by all my demons I slowly weaken, my wounds and cuts they only deepen And while you heal me you become a victim of mistreatment I'm fucking sorry, the traces of my past just taunt me The future's daunting when the present feels so damn disheartening How could you want me? You found me right when I had lost me You hold me tight through all the fights although it's so exhausting And it's so lovely, you never let the pressure crush me I made you feel so low while you put no one else above me I know the baggage in my trunk is ugly and yet you still choose to love me How can you love someone so damaged? Feel it in my palms, feeling so beyond you don't know I am respawned Everyday this thing gets harder to manage Been there from the start even when you saw the black that's covering my heart I showed you scars that are deeper than what you have known and you tell me I've never looked more beautiful So I'm sorry that I'm damaged I'm sorry for the pain I'm sorry that you probably have to deal with it again I never meant for you to deal with all this pressure Or for you to deal with all this pain that don't belong to you You carry all my burdens from my past on a stretcher So the very least that I can do is write this song for you