Find myself kissing the sidewalk Brown water and xanny together Just trying to turn my mind off Fool I was thinking today would be better Feeling I'm getting Personal heaven Craving I've had since I was eleven Brain interference That's draining my spirit I know it's bad for me I don't wanna hear it All alone No way home Bloody nose From my snow All my friends Left me for dead I find myself here again here again Why can't I get high Without wanting to die Without wanting to die Why can't I get high Without wanting to die Without wanting to die Told myself I'd find a limit Honest-to-God I'd be done with my sinning Two pills before I forget it Walls closing in and the ceiling is spinning Brain going manic I start to panic This night's not going away that I planned it Oxygen's thinning Tires are skidding This is all my fault man who am I kidding Close my eyes Say good bye Let me be Let me die Mom and dad Don't be sad Really it's not so bad not so bad Why can't I get high Without wanting to die Without wanting to die Why can't I get high Without wanting to die Without wanting to die