Caught in my body My feet drag me Wherever I do not want to go I have no choice I am split in two Body and mind My mind is clear. Wants to find another host not deformed , yet not perfect Raise war , raise hell , mind wins Body cries , mind flies , body dies I swim in agony Gone is my golden er I collapse in lurid dreams The stream of distress has taken me into its arms A collage of memories flashes before my eyes. Sometimes grotesque , sometimes destructive I long for an reunification. Some time near in time. An embrace of filthy claws starts me out of my sleep. But there is no reality , reality is gone. So am I. There is no more me The body dissolved in an ethereal mass The minds roams in an unending universe I am lost in my dreams and there is no way back I think I die But I am not certain What is dying The change from known into unknown The change from unknown into known There is no colours Nothing ! Only fading into solitude